I’m utterly depressed now and I need to get it out of my system, so let me write this entire thing down to share with random readers.
First of all, inspiring people are incredibly tricky. Once they appear in your life, they bring an inspiration with them. You start feeling good, you have tons of ideas, you know what you’re gonna do and where you should go and so on. After awhile you even believe that you have an inspiration within you, that you’re bloody talented, you can do lots of things and nothing can ever stop you. The spark will kindle a flame, they say. But the fire needs to be kept up. When inspiring people leave, they take the inspiration they once brought with them. Basically, you can do nothing about it. It just happens. The next moment the whole fire and energy are gone. Say goodbye to them. (Okay, let’s be not so tragic and say there’s going to be someone else, maybe even more inspiring, but the fact is you have to stay totally uninspired for awhile and somehow deal with it. I’ve got no idea how to do that, but it is possible. There are no drama queens here.)
Second of all, the hardest part is the understanding and accepting the news. When person does something you don’t like, it’s much easier to be mad at him, to cry, shout and do some other stupid things people usually do. It may seem unbelievable, but it is much harder to realize that you can’t blame anybody for this situation because you can understand both sides. Thus you are sad and this sadness has no way out because of this understanding. It stays with you for a long, long time. Hello, load. It’s nice to meet you. Sorry, but I need to keep calm and carry on. So this was the little insight into things which are floating in my head right now. Thanks for reading, I finished.